ok ah. aku nk update bole?

sooooooooooooooooooo
first of all. aku nk comment sikit lah.
kadang2 manusie ni, tk sayang mulut.
asal main hembus jer.
dorg pikir kiter ni takde perasaan lah.
hati kiter ni buat dari batu eh?
ooo.

tapikan, mmg obvious lah.
kan kan?
nk blg satu dunia pe.
kalau dier bole buat,
aku pun bole kan?
okay ah.
aku satu hari nk pi makan kat canteen 3.
engineering nye blk. nk cuci mata.
sape nk ikut aku???
mul mul,
temankan aku boleee?
wahaha

k tu memang purely sengaje.
i take that back. hahh.
mcm aku nk buat seh.
engineering blk tak rase ade lakik2 taste aku.
cheyy.
lagipun, takpe ah.. aku pun tk nk cari sape2 lagi.
coz lakik zaman skrg...
yg the perfect one tu susah nk cari.
aku ingatkan da jumpe.
abe..........
jeng jeng jeng.
ntah lah.

tak kate geram,
mmg ah.
nk kate sedih,
tu lagiii mmg ah.
nk kate marah,
hmmm
agknye ah.
nk kate regret,
ntah!

tapi....
aku masih mengharapkan sesuatu.
sesuatu
yang ku idam-idamkan.
iaitu..
jeng jeng jeng!

tak nak blg ah!!!!
*malu*

tapi, sampai bile kiter nk jadi mcm ni?
continuously hurting each other.
i dont think thats necessary la kan.

aku just nk tau lah.
perasaan ikhlas dari hati dier.
tak gune lah kite buat mcm ni.
blog abt each other.
but aku da takde jln lain.
keadaan terpakse u noe.
darurat. u noe. u noe.

i've tried everything thats possible
to make it up to him.
but..
if he thinks theres another girl,
thats better than me,
that can make him happy.
that can replace me..

i cannot do anything much.

yang penting diana,
da berusaha.



penutup:
im very sorry for the harsh language,
i'd like to apologize to all of you and kepade parti2 mane yang terase.
but i really cant help it.
im in a state of depressssiooooonn.
sobs.

like seriously lah.
and im v sorry if i didnt reply allll of your msgs.
i was down with fever for the past few days.
so...
cheer me up lah people. plsss.
i need some attention. =(


and people,
wish me luck for my common tests!!
i know i can do it!
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =(

and pls pray...
for my speedy recovery..
thanks y'all.

appreciate it. (:

hey people.

i wont be updating anytime soon.

dont bother to read this blog until ........ dunno.

thanks.

bye.

*stretches bodyyy*

guess whatt. today i pon sch! haha. but i pon for a gd reason okayy. im sick so i need a gd rest at home before sitting for my physio and microbio pract quizzes tmrw. i wonder when will i get completely well so i wont worry anymore abt my ovary problem again and again... hmm.

i think the fall i had on sunday should be the cause of it lah. yeah i fell in the toilet while i was doing sthg.. hahh. i slipped and fell on my butt.. ouch! it was painful alrite, and suddenly i saw blood on my pants. then suddenly i thot.. omg miscarriage??!! eyy, since when i got pregnant seh.. ???!!?? i panicked, of coz. but then i realize it was only menstrual blood.. haha.. good la.. its a sign that im not pregnant. wahaha =P

but after the fall i became totally weak la.. i slept the whole afternoon .then no mood to study. the nxt morning in school.. i was totally shagged. i guess it was a bad start, to sleep in lecture.. hahaha =D yepp, slept thruout the IPC lecture.. quite embarassing when gabriella noticed and my eyes were red. =/ afterall, if i listen to the lecturer i wont be able to catch anything he said. its too .. complicated and incomprehensible. ahh. need a tutor... i need a tutor!!! anyone to tutor and help this poor lil creature? =(

oh yar we also got back our maths quiz. urgh. i got a 'short lecture' by my lecturer, mrs/mdm wong. shucks. and how dare she accused me that it wasnt me who did the MoL!! omg! thats bad la. its not like i fail the paper or what. clarice aso kena lecture from her. anyhow accuse people only. sad seh. =(

speaking of that, clarice told me that she saw kero at jurong point the other day. haha! he worked there! lolx.. must tell dear abt this.. =P

2 more days till the release of 'da vinci code'! and approx 1 more week till i get to see my alltime favourite character, storm! yayy! i love x-men! woohooo~~ cant wait to watch it. (:

anyway, from now on i wanna be as optimistic as possible. abt school, abt life, abt everything. yess. must be strong and not to give up easily. if im aiming for sthg, i must achieve what i aimed for. even if people say its futile to hope for sthg impossible, but nothing is impossible rite? hehh. but dun worry, i wont do such things like fifi andrea la.. thats gonecase uh. i wont give up things easily but not until to that extend ah, haha. btw yesterday's last epi was a total letdown. it was boring.. maybe because it was more like a 'expect-the-expected' kinda ending. but what happened to eka and marsha? what happened to andi? what happened to susi and randi and benny? i want moreee. disappointed with the director. oh oh.

and did you know that eka and dwi are here in singapore? waaaaaaahhh! i nk jumpe nk jumpe nk jumpe ekaaaaa!
okay diana. stop your nonsense.

guess ill stop for now. will update moree soon. miss me u guys!

and i miss you so so much! where are youuuuu :(

im blogging again. yeah.
im so stressed up sia.
like seriously.

whats wrong with me?
why is my life turning upside down?
i want it to be taken.

i know im acting rather childish.
but who cares.

whenever im feeling so so down,
ill read colin & kero's blog. im sure you people know who rite?
haha. yepp
they're famous eh?
i just envy them.
haiz.

i was browsing friendster just now (using sis' accnt) when suddenly i realize how i miss my girlfriends of sec 4p so so sooooo much. omg. i felt guilty of not being able to catch up the latest updates of you people due to my hectic sch schedule.. sigh. well, i still read your blogs tho, its just dat i didnt tag. haha. =X but again, i really miss you all lah. your ragams and everything. singing in class la.. laughing like hyenas la.. crapping alot abt mushy malay novels.. i want my old friends back!! lets organize a class reunion la.. dont be so busy.. =P

i've been feeling down these days abt some stuffs and also school. damn. im beginning to hate sch. im beginning to hate biomedical sci. im beginning to hate np. WAAARRGH. i dunno eh. its just that i feel so so stressed up with myself. for being lazy and not hardworking and always slacking n gaming. -.-" but seriously, having classmates who are damn hardworking really stresses me. i heard most of my classmates, like erm erm 98.9% wish to pursue a degree. WHOA. they were alrdy talking abt local Us and stuffs man. argh. do i wanna pursue a degree? or the question shoud be, can i pursue a degree? i dont think so i can. i know my strength. even during o lvls i was like, half alive grasping for air to survive.. due to my last min insufficient preparation. haiz. and one thing what i dont like abt school is, everyday sure finish late. esp on monday. from 8am to 6pm. like working hours seh. urgh. and also i donch like the np system la. everything computerized. even the maths hmwrk all must do online. then my stupid laptop everytime got problem. which resulted in me not doing my assignment. then the lecturer go call my mum coz i nvr do my assignment. -.-" its like, not that i dont want to do it wattttttt. :( :( :( :(

ok la. stop complaining diana. i just have to be physically, mentally and emotionally strong. haha. yea physically strong to overcome the challenge of climbing steep slopes to the lsct (life science & chemical technology) building which is located like, how to say ah.. on top of the 'hill' ar. i admit i am very bad in describing things. so yea. excuse my english miss. and mister. then rite, everyday (ok la, so exaggerating. not everyday, most of the days =D) carry laptop n heavy bag up and down the slope can die le. sumore the praying room is located at the canteen 1, which is down the slope. den everyday go up go down with bag n everything.... zzzzzz. i think by the time i graduated frm poly (insya Allah, amin amin) i'm left with bones. hahaha. but dont think that will happen la. i eat alot u noe u noe. =P

im practically bored. im dying out of boredom. bleah. parents, sis & bros went out. shiks went for tuition. im at home rotting alone. hmm. supposed to study for my physiology quiz which is on this coming wed but im soo not in the mood la. oh well. i need some catalyst for my brain so it can help to digest infomations much more faster. haiz. u noe, i have this tinge of regret for taking this course. i didnt expect to be studying chemistry again. thats like so sick la. i never understand chemistry. i cannot bring myself to like, or even worse, love chemistry. yucks. i just dont like okay. nuff said. microbiology seems interesting at first but now its draining my interest. everything that is being taught seems so alien to me. like wth. maybe i daydream alot... but hey! i always pay attention in lectures okay. im a good girl mar. HAHA. im so crappy. thats a lie la. coz i nvr pay attention during IPC (inorganic and physical chemistry) lectures. i only listen 49% of the lectures. then i babbled n doodled. coz its just plain boring. maths is ok lah. no comments. didnt expect to be studying differentiations, integrations and all other amaths stuffs again. sad sad. and the lecturer explains like the speed of lightning seh. so fast. its like,

djksfhakadhuishdhfisd = 3x + 5
&^(*(^&^&%$%%#$#$#(*)_))*(&
()**(*(^&*^^%^$%#$%##$&^(*()*
&**&*^%%#!@#&^*&)*__)+_()*(&*
so the answer is = 24x/25!
can horh.. you people do tutorials can pass one le..
if not ar, i dunno how to say one horh. i cannot help u one la..

she and her singlish. haiz.

ok lah.. ive ranted like alot alrdy.. haha. i feel like i've let out a those that have been bothering me. well not all. some things are just meant to be kept to yourself. u noe u noe. i'm going to change the layout anyway. soon la.. someone made a layout esp for me, so i would like to thank deaarrr (or issit his friend) for the layout. no no, dear edit the template for me, the layout was done by his friend, and i added sum stuffs on it just to spice it up. mwahahaha! oh but nevertheless, thank you thank you. =D

ohh yess. i was wondering, should i open a new friendster accnt? i feel like i need it to keep the updates with you people.. but then again.. friendster reminds me of those dark bloody events. well, the aftermath is still disastrous. so yeah. and things have not been the same like it used to be. im quite sad about that actually. but then again, "nasi pun da jadi bubur.." sometimes i feel so sucidal.. i feel so lonely.. i feel so so empty and stuffs. maybe i need adjustment to my new environment. or or.. i dunno. haiz.

hello people. here i am again, updating a v v short entry. i's say its rather random la. currently blogging while listening to microbiology lecture... wahaha =X since i havent print my lecture notes, i gotta refer to those he posted (my lecturer) on MeL. i know its been ages since i last updated.. sigh. have been very busy with sch. i didnt expect to learn amaths n chemistry again. waaaaa. so sad. my maths foundation very weak le. need to practise more.. my maths lecturer.. is so evil. wahaha. she anyhow give alot of assignment le. 1st wk oni beb... =(

i think ill end my entry now.. need to concentrate man. oh some of you may ask why my layout is sooo plain... hmm. i just want something different. u noe.. haha. eh people if you have any nice nice layout come gimme arr. =P

k laaa. betta stop now. dun wan get caught. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!