i was browsing friendster just now (using sis' accnt) when suddenly i realize how i miss my girlfriends of sec 4p so so sooooo much. omg. i felt guilty of not being able to catch up the latest updates of you people due to my hectic sch schedule.. sigh. well, i still read your blogs tho, its just dat i didnt tag. haha. =X but again, i really miss you all lah. your ragams and everything. singing in class la.. laughing like hyenas la.. crapping alot abt mushy malay novels.. i want my old friends back!! lets organize a class reunion la.. dont be so busy.. =P

i've been feeling down these days abt some stuffs and also school. damn. im beginning to hate sch. im beginning to hate biomedical sci. im beginning to hate np. WAAARRGH. i dunno eh. its just that i feel so so stressed up with myself. for being lazy and not hardworking and always slacking n gaming. -.-" but seriously, having classmates who are damn hardworking really stresses me. i heard most of my classmates, like erm erm 98.9% wish to pursue a degree. WHOA. they were alrdy talking abt local Us and stuffs man. argh. do i wanna pursue a degree? or the question shoud be, can i pursue a degree? i dont think so i can. i know my strength. even during o lvls i was like, half alive grasping for air to survive.. due to my last min insufficient preparation. haiz. and one thing what i dont like abt school is, everyday sure finish late. esp on monday. from 8am to 6pm. like working hours seh. urgh. and also i donch like the np system la. everything computerized. even the maths hmwrk all must do online. then my stupid laptop everytime got problem. which resulted in me not doing my assignment. then the lecturer go call my mum coz i nvr do my assignment. -.-" its like, not that i dont want to do it wattttttt. :( :( :( :(

ok la. stop complaining diana. i just have to be physically, mentally and emotionally strong. haha. yea physically strong to overcome the challenge of climbing steep slopes to the lsct (life science & chemical technology) building which is located like, how to say ah.. on top of the 'hill' ar. i admit i am very bad in describing things. so yea. excuse my english miss. and mister. then rite, everyday (ok la, so exaggerating. not everyday, most of the days =D) carry laptop n heavy bag up and down the slope can die le. sumore the praying room is located at the canteen 1, which is down the slope. den everyday go up go down with bag n everything.... zzzzzz. i think by the time i graduated frm poly (insya Allah, amin amin) i'm left with bones. hahaha. but dont think that will happen la. i eat alot u noe u noe. =P

im practically bored. im dying out of boredom. bleah. parents, sis & bros went out. shiks went for tuition. im at home rotting alone. hmm. supposed to study for my physiology quiz which is on this coming wed but im soo not in the mood la. oh well. i need some catalyst for my brain so it can help to digest infomations much more faster. haiz. u noe, i have this tinge of regret for taking this course. i didnt expect to be studying chemistry again. thats like so sick la. i never understand chemistry. i cannot bring myself to like, or even worse, love chemistry. yucks. i just dont like okay. nuff said. microbiology seems interesting at first but now its draining my interest. everything that is being taught seems so alien to me. like wth. maybe i daydream alot... but hey! i always pay attention in lectures okay. im a good girl mar. HAHA. im so crappy. thats a lie la. coz i nvr pay attention during IPC (inorganic and physical chemistry) lectures. i only listen 49% of the lectures. then i babbled n doodled. coz its just plain boring. maths is ok lah. no comments. didnt expect to be studying differentiations, integrations and all other amaths stuffs again. sad sad. and the lecturer explains like the speed of lightning seh. so fast. its like,

djksfhakadhuishdhfisd = 3x + 5
&^(*(^&^&%$%%#$#$#(*)_))*(&
()**(*(^&*^^%^$%#$%##$&^(*()*
&**&*^%%#!@#&^*&)*__)+_()*(&*
so the answer is = 24x/25!
can horh.. you people do tutorials can pass one le..
if not ar, i dunno how to say one horh. i cannot help u one la..

she and her singlish. haiz.

ok lah.. ive ranted like alot alrdy.. haha. i feel like i've let out a those that have been bothering me. well not all. some things are just meant to be kept to yourself. u noe u noe. i'm going to change the layout anyway. soon la.. someone made a layout esp for me, so i would like to thank deaarrr (or issit his friend) for the layout. no no, dear edit the template for me, the layout was done by his friend, and i added sum stuffs on it just to spice it up. mwahahaha! oh but nevertheless, thank you thank you. =D

ohh yess. i was wondering, should i open a new friendster accnt? i feel like i need it to keep the updates with you people.. but then again.. friendster reminds me of those dark bloody events. well, the aftermath is still disastrous. so yeah. and things have not been the same like it used to be. im quite sad about that actually. but then again, "nasi pun da jadi bubur.." sometimes i feel so sucidal.. i feel so lonely.. i feel so so empty and stuffs. maybe i need adjustment to my new environment. or or.. i dunno. haiz.